you say you wanna be my friend. well how can i? every time i am around you or see you i thank of the past. how you used to love me. (so you say) how you use to be the one to hold me. you use to dry my tears when i cryed now your the reson i cry. i was lost in your lies. they were such prutty lies.

i hate who i am. this perosn who is lost. i cant find my way. and you say you care. i might sound angry to you but i am not this is just the way i express my pain. i hold back the tears till it makes me yell. i dont want you to see it still hurts. every night i pray god please make me strong. well i still fell weak. i have never let myself love now i know why. i was so stupid to love you. i should have known what you were gonna do. maybe i sound crazy to you. well i dont care. you owe me so much. your heart would be nice. you dont even care enugh about me to tell me why you did it. the funny part of this all is im not even angry at you. i wish i were. anger dont hurt. call me a foole but i didnt see it coming. but that could be because love is blind. i guess you didnt think i had enugh pain in my life so you thought you would give me some more. thinx alot. you keep giving me signs to move on. i am trying these things take time ya know. then you trun right back around and give me false hope. like whe people ask are we just on a brake and you say i dont know. well tell me. whats your deal.

m.wilson

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