all i need is a lil help
Well I have been keepin' myself bussy so I dont think about the things th@ hont me. (Th@'s y I havent wrote.)But I find the sec. it slows down it all come's < & hits me like a tun of bricks. I am so confused by the thoughts th@ go threw my head IDK were 2 go. I try 2 hide it & act like its all okay but I find it only makes things worse so I have 2 change myself so no 1 can c it. I have become so fake. I am scarred of what I am trunin' n2. IDK who I am n-e more. I feel empty nside. I try 2 act like like I am happy & full but I am afraid ya'll r goin' 2 c threw me. I have ran & ran n circles gettin' no were & now IDK where 2 go. I am scarred n-e way I go its all gonna come out & I will b traped by all the lies th@ I have put myself n. All the fake smiles, laph's, and words. I find myself h8in' ppl who r happy & dont have 2 hide there pain. I remeber bein' th@ girl. I want 2 b th@ girl. I just dont know how r where 2 start so I can. I keep tellin' myself m/b if I just keep runin' no 1 will know & it all will b ok. This is my letter 4 help can u help me r not? If not just leave me alone. Cant u c u'r only makin' things worse 4 me. I start 2 think u'r the reson I am this way...No th@ cant b right I have truned myself this way. Its my fault....r is it? I am fallin' so fast th@ I fill no 1 will b able 2 ketch me & once I hite the grown I wont b able 2 get < ^. I have been there b4 but only this time I fill it will b worse... I have screamed so loud th@ I cant scream n-e more. All I need is just a lil help.

♥ Mika

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>>Undistcoverd-Ashlee Simpson
>>my best friend-Tim McGraw
>>My Immortal-Evensence
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>>Over & Over-Tim McGraw & Nelly
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my full name is Mika-Mae Wilson. but my friends call me Mika-Mae. im a 15 year old living in Durant.I have green eyes and brown hair w/ blond highlights, my friends say I look like my aunt Kandy.
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