I have realize now th@ most teen love don't last. I shouldn't get attached @ this age n-e way. I am young & free. I should use these year's 2 grow ^ instead of b n pain. I want 2 look < @ my teen year's & say I had alot of fun & not say it was so hard 2 get over all th@ pain. I know n life there is alot of it. Most I can't control but y give myself more. On thing's th@ could b avoided. No I am not sayin' I wanna play it safe. I do want 2 b the kind of person th@ does take risk's. But I don't want 2 b the kind of person who spend's my whole teenage year's by the phone. No th@'s Sasha's job. I want 2 run around hang out w/ my friend's & just b me. I spent enough time by th@ damn phone. I spent my whole 14 year by th@ damned thing. I have desided th@ I will have as much fun as I can. U'r only a teenager once right. I don't want 2 worrie about stuff.

I have found n the last couple of week's since I have been doin' th@ i have been so much more happy. I just hang out w/ ppl. Yeah I have a boyfriend but it's not a serouse thing. It's just a teenage thing. I am not sayin' I don't like him cuz I do. He is alot of fun. But he is just s.1 who is mostly just passin' threw my life. & th@ is fine. He is fun & sweet but I am not gonna let myself get close 2 him like I have done w/ other's n the past. I have found I am happier when I don't.

I am so happy right now I feel like I can fly. I haven't been this happy n a really long time. It feel's like e.thing is goin' my way. IDK if it is safe 2 say th@ I don't wanna genks myself. ~*LOL*~ I have desided 2 move on n my life. I have also found th@ th@'s really the only way u can. U have 2 desided u'r self 2 do so. & I did. Now I am like 100% happier.

I really need 2 get goin' I need 2 clean my room so I can put all my x-mas stuff where is goes. I ~*♥*~ yall.

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XOXO
Mika-Mae

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